It's Saturday evening in New York...and I'm still in New York. I just ended up being under-prepared for a departure this morning, and luckily my roommate allowed me to stay an extra day. But worry not, I'm perfectly on course for leaving tomorrow.
My head swims with emotions and feelings I can't articulate. I am at once electrified and terrified; positive and doubtful. My mental state is struggling to deal with the logistics of packing everything I own onto a bike, combined with planning a trip into the unknown. It is pushed to breaking point when I actually consider the realities of what lies beyond the front door.
But this is my dream. Undoubtedly I have been unsuccessful in some key areas of my organisation, and it is a matter of fact that I will fail in many more over the coming days and weeks. But isn't this the learning curve? I sure hope so. The happiest I have been in the last few days has been on my practice rides, with various stages of a fully loaded bike. This comforts me no end. I am prepared for loneliness, discomfort, uncertainty and fear. I have been dealing with them to a certain degree during my planning stages. But wait...I am also ready for exhilaration, euphoria, experiences that will blow me away. The two-edged sword of the 'unknown' I guess.
Anyway, enough of this....I shall depart for real tomorrow...updates soon....