Needless to say I have got over these minor humps in this experience of a lifetime. I'm learning a lot about what it is to constantly internalise my emotions, and have discovered that I am just as likely to succumb to these issues as anyone else! I'm glad to have pinpointed the source of my discontent, and now am happy again to be alone my only myself for company. I have the desire to make my film again, and that more than anything lifts my mood. I still have days where I wake up and don't particularly fancy getting on my bicycle, but within a few short miles those feeling wash and away and are replaced by the promise of adventure and exploration. This is why we put ourselves through these things, is it not? I never believed it would be an easy ride all the way, but after each low point, the high that follows brings a new promise of such intensity it is like discovering the expedition all over again. I'm not really one for sayings and cliches, but 'What doesn't kill you makes you stronger' comes to mind.
I feel very much alive, and stronger than ever.